So almost a month later since my miscarriage and I hope things start looking up. Its been so hard lately hearing of other friends pregnancies and them not even knowing what you are going through. I want to be happy for them, but I'm just dying inside, mostly because it would be so much fun being due right around the same time, and that our kids could be friends. So many mixed feelings right now, jealousy, upset, sadness, lonely, none that you should feel when you find out your friends are pregnant. I keep having to tell myself everything happens for a reason.. but sometimes its just hard.
I am so blessed for the people who have been keeping us in their prayers, I know many people don't know, but for those that do it has helped. Just knowing that people have you in their thoughts is sometimes all you need. Its so crazy how everything happened, Heavenly Father has definitely been with me through the whole experience. I received many priesthood blessings and luckily didn't have to go through too much pain. For that I am grateful and blessed. I have to just keep reminding myself, it will all be worth it in the end. When the days comes that I get to hold our little baby in our hands.
